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- My Journey Through Abuse and the Holdeman Mennonites
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- Length: 8 hrs and 50 mins
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The Holdeman's were religious exempt from education beyond the eighth grade, and I was beat for begging to go to a high school.
As a minor, I had to kiss approximately 200 different people on the lips, some of whom were complete strangers, for the sake of something called The Holy Kiss; only it didn't feel holy.
Ahaz determined to break my independent, inquisitive nature through severe beatings and worse, including deadbolting me within my bedroom and nailing my windows shut.
Multiple Holdeman Mennonites were aware of what was being done to me, yet no one reported it. Instead, I was made out to be mentally ill; a liar.
After years of suffering through emotional, physical, physiological and sexual abuse, how could I even survive?
No one could hear me then... will YOU hear me now?
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- By: Frances Reilly
- Narrated by: Emma Lowe
- Length: 8 hrs and 41 mins
- Unabridged
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Frances Reilly and her sisters were abandoned by their mother outside Nazareth House Convent - a Belfast orphanage run by nuns. Little did they know the unimaginable cruelty they'd endure within its walls.
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So Much Pain
- By Vicke on 12-25-21
By: Frances Reilly
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Such Good Boys
- The True Story of a Mother, Two Sons and a Horrifying Murder
- By: Tina Dirmann
- Narrated by: Gabra Zackman
- Length: 6 hrs and 5 mins
- Unabridged
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Raised in the suburb of Riverside, California, 20-year-old college student Jason Bautista endured for years his emotionally disturbed mother's verbal and psychological abuse. She even locked him out of the house, tied him up with electrical cord, and on one occasion, gave him a beating that sent him to the emergency room. On the night of January 14, 2003, Jason strangled his mother. To keep authorities from identifying her body, he chopped off her head and hands, an idea he claimed he got from watching an episode of the hit TV series The Sopranos.
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Could have been much more
- By Shopsfromeverywhere on 10-25-16
By: Tina Dirmann
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My Firefly
- By: Maggie Kirton
- Narrated by: Mirron Willis
- Length: 8 hrs and 24 mins
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A horrifying account of torture and humiliation at the hands of her family, My Firefly will pull you in and grab hold of your spirit. Seen from the perspective of the family home, this young girl struggles to stay alive as she is slowly ripped apart emotionally, physically, and sexually by her father. You'll experience an abundance of feelings throughout this book and won't be able to put it down. My Firefly is a flicker of light in complete darkness, leading to safety. It is cruel and brutish and bloody. But, if you want inspiration, then listen to My Firefly.
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Absolutely heartbreaking and powerful!
- By lorri on 04-30-24
By: Maggie Kirton
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Playing Dead
- A Memoir of Terror and Survival
- By: Monique Faison Ross, Gary M. Krebs
- Narrated by: Janina Edwards
- Length: 6 hrs and 23 mins
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Monique, the daughter of San Diego Chargers football great Earl Faison, married her high school sweetheart soon after she discovered she was pregnant with his child. Her relationship with Chris was shaky from the start, but turned tumultuous as he became verbally and physically abusive. When she could no longer put up with the abuse, she left him with their children. That was when the stalking and genuine threats began. Nothing stopped him - not protection injunctions, police warnings, or even arrests. One fateful Monday morning, Chris kidnapped Monique....
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God Kept Her Through it All
- By Ovonda D Walker on 01-15-20
By: Monique Faison Ross, and others
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Momma Said Write a Book About It
- Memoirs of a Scapegoat
- By: Victoria S. Hardy
- Narrated by: Virtual Voice
- Length: 21 hrs and 37 mins
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When you’re a scapegoat in an abusive household, the scapegoating doesn’t end when you turn 18. Author Dani Donnelly is just now finding this out at age 50, and she’s about to show the world through her memoirs how pervasively damaging an abusive home can be. Her lifelong narcissistic abuser, however, is taking unthinkable steps to put a halt to Dani’s plan. This novel is a chilling tale of survival.
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great book, wish it had a real voice behind it
- By Jayme Paul on 02-02-24
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Running in Circles
- A Memoir
- By: Eva Yin
- Narrated by: Sarah Mollo-Christensen
- Length: 6 hrs and 2 mins
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Eighteen-year-old Eva Yin is admitted into an ER in the San Francisco Bay Area for a serious blood infection - the souvenir of a missed shot of heroin. Barely recovered and against medical advice, she leaves the hospital for New York City only to end up homeless and facing prostitution and violence. Being a heroin addict is like running in circles. You run, and you run, and you end up exactly where you started.
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worth reading
- By Sarah B. on 03-01-22
By: Eva Yin
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Memoirs of an Invisible Child
- By: Kelly Walk Hines
- Narrated by: Coleen Marlo
- Length: 5 hrs and 49 mins
- Unabridged
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At the young age of three, while I was at school, my mother was murdered by her abusive new boyfriend. What would happen to her five unintentionally abandoned children? The heartbreak of the devastating loss of my mother was just the beginning of a series of tragic events that shaped my childhood. Lost in the chaos of abuse, I was the unseen collateral damage of domestic violence. I was forced to take on the role of the invisible child for self-preservation. I figured you can't hurt what you can't see.
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Her strength even during the hardest times
- By N.Womack on 04-05-24
By: Kelly Walk Hines
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Such a Pretty Girl
- By: Laura Wiess
- Narrated by: Angela Jayne Rogers
- Length: 5 hrs and 8 mins
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Fifteen-year-old Meredith hoped to never again see her father, who did something unspeakable to her. But after only three years in jail, he's coming back home - and she's terrified. Critically acclaimed young adult author Laura Wiess' novel deals frankly with the sensitive subject of child abuse.
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I have no idea wth is going on
- By Maia on 04-01-24
By: Laura Wiess
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Beneath the Skin
- By: Kyla Stone
- Narrated by: Caitlin Kelly
- Length: 12 hrs and 52 mins
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For 18-year-old Sidney Shaw, life pretty much sucks. Her mom's a drunk. Her dad's worse. At school, she's bullied by her ex-best friend. And cutting no longer brings the relief she craves. When Sidney is forced into group counseling, she meets perfect, popular Arianna, the type of girl who grieves over a broken nail. But Arianna has secrets of her own. She might prove herself a friend - if Sidney can let her guard down. Then, there's Lucas, the sweet and funny new guy who sees straight through her tough, snarky facade.
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kyla Stone's most powerful work
- By Doug Cass on 03-03-21
By: Kyla Stone
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Tressa
- The 12-Year-Old Mum
- By: Tressa Middleton
- Narrated by: Ruth Urquhart
- Length: 6 hrs and 46 mins
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Tressa Middleton made UK history when she became Britain's youngest mum in 2006 aged just 12 years and eight months. Her case provoked shock and outrage - but the truth behind the headlines was far sadder than anyone could ever have imagined. Born into a life of poverty and neglect, Tressa was forced to grow up fast when was she taken into care at just four years old. She was returned to her mother's chaotic world, but by the age of seven, she was being abused by her own brother and at 11 years old she fell pregnant with his child. For years she kept his dark secret in an attempt to hold her family together until the truth threatened to destroy her completely.
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truly amazing such a beautiful n strong Young wome
- By kelly on 12-22-18
By: Tressa Middleton
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Another Place at the Table
- By: Kathy Harrison
- Narrated by: Pam Ward
- Length: 7 hrs and 15 mins
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For more than a decade, Kathy Harrison has sheltered a shifting cast of troubled youngsters - the offspring of prostitutes and addicts; the sons and daughters of abusers; and teenage parents who aren't equipped for parenthood. All this, in addition to raising her three biological sons and two adopted daughters. What would motivate someone to give herself over to constant, largely uncompensated chaos? For Harrison, the answer is easy.
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Fostering
- By Ozark on 01-31-20
By: Kathy Harrison
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Domestic Violence: The Sara Farraday Story
- By: Annette Reid
- Narrated by: Virtual Voice
- Length: 6 hrs and 48 mins
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Sara, was determined to marry the man of her dreams; Little did she know, her dream would soon turn into a nightmare. Naive, innocent Sara Ramsey, fell madly in love with bad-boy, Mike Farraday. Despite the negative rumors, Sara, married Mike, and soon became the the target of his drunken rages and erractic behavior. After eight years of physical and mental abuse, Sara, finally realizes that she has to get out. Mike is determined that Sara won't live long enough to escape the hell that he has prepared for her. This story weaves lies with love, treachery with truth and serves up a menu of ...
By: Annette Reid
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- Eltanin
- 04-16-24
An unbreakable spirit.
Hannah wrote a very difficult to read telling of the physical, mental, emotional, and sexual abuse she endured through her childhood and adolescent years. I had to pause the audio book several times to take breaks, sometimes for a day or more.
I’ve read some of the other reviews on the print version complaining of the grammatical and continuity errors in this memoir, but I see it as evidence of the story’s validity. It was structured as if it were written by someone with a minimal 8th grade cult education. A limited understanding of the lexicon reflects that of someone raised in a community with an isolated dialect, such as the Holdeman Mennonites.
The continuity errors (of which I admit there were many. For example: she described a hope chest and it’s purpose for what seemed like a half-dozen times) are exactly what you would expect from someone attempting to record horrid and terrible memories that are being dredged up from suppression and relived. The re-traumatizing would cause anyone to have to stop writing for extended periods between chapters, and forget they had already described a particular subject. This isn’t a story written for entertainment. This is a damaged human being sharing the worst and most shameful moments of her life, shouting, “this happened to me! Is there anyone who will listen and care?!”
I don’t understand how anyone can be so heartless as to read this book and not have enough empathy to be both heartbroken and proud of Hannah for the battles she has survived. However, the monsters and devils contained within this narrative are evidence of the contrary.
Hannah is a warrior. The evidence is shown in her bravery to publish this memoir.
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- Anonymous User
- 05-22-24
That mother
The true monster in this book was the mother! She knew everything that was happening and turning a blind eye doesn’t mean she didn’t know. To actually leave that man and go back again and again knowing her child was being raped and beaten is inexcusable.
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- Amazon Customer
- 05-02-24
she survived!
I love her courage and strength all the while she was being beaten and raped, molested by her father.
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- David Clingan
- 04-14-24
Reader mid read too many words over and over.
Reader doesn’t sound natural and mis pronounced the same words wrong, over and over. Story is one of concern.
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